Sick and Tired and Sick...

This is a nothing much post. Just because I can.

The weather here sucks. I hate it. It's hot. We had over a week of 100+ degree temps and then today it rained. We don't get rain after April here in Northern California, even though we need it desperately. So it was weird. As a result, it caused every bone and muscle in my body to ache and hurt and I came home from work sick. I did take a nap -- a rare thing for me, but now it's nearly time for bed and of course I'm not sleepy. It's the pits.

I am looking forward to going down to the desert (am I stupid??) to visit my daughter in 2 weeks. I'll be flying down, because believe it or not, it's cheaper then driving. It's an 8 hour drive, one way -- that's 4 tanks of gas there and back. At $40 a tankful, it would be $160. I got an awesome deal on a flight for $80 round trip!! Woohoo!!! Although Daughter was here a few weeks ago, I've not seen her new house yet. In fact I've not been down there in 2 years, since I moved her there for what has become her dream teaching job. I am excited and scared too. I worry too much and not about the big things -- like someone bombing the plane, or it falling out of the sky for unknown or known reasons -- no -- I worry about things like: should I bring my laptop or would that count as too much carry on baggage?? What happens if I have a problem finding my gate or finding her in Ontario?? What happens if I get sick down there?? Or break a leg or get bit by a rattlesnake?? Like I said, I worry about the strangest things.

I talked to my brother tonight -- another rare thing. He is 15 years older than I am and we are not close. He called out of the blue. We chatted for almost an hour -- another rare thing. But I think he's discovering that his baby sister has grown up. About time, since I am 47 years old. We are finding we have lots of things in common. Namely our love for animals. I've rescued and rehabbed dogs for years, worked and volunteered in shelters and love all animals. He is currently at docent at the KC Zoo and is taking a trip to Africa for a special working safari. I am planning a trip to Alaska next year, to see the wildlife. I can't wait to see his pictures and he can't wait to see mine in a year!! It's kinda nice developing this repore with him after all these years, I'm enjoying it tremendously. It makes me think, perhaps I am not the black sheep after all....

Oh back to my trip to the desert. We are going to drive up to see my nephew, who also lives in the desert -- just a different part of it. AND I get to meet my new GREAT nephew for the first time. I have many great nieces and nephews, but this one is special. I raised his father, my nephew, Doug, from the time he was 14 years old. I wasn't much older, as we are only 5 years apart in age. So this baby is much more like my grandchild, then a great nephew. I am thrilled to be able to meet him and hold him and I am hoping that it will give Daughter some ideas!!!

Well enough dribbling for tonight...

Immigration

I am so glad the Immigration bill did not pass. It was stupid. Most people fail to understand the plight of the immigrant, especially those coming in from Mexico. The following are my views, they cannot be changed, these views have remained the same for many years now. My views and opinions have come from living in California, where 90% of the nation's food is grown. I have lived next to labor camps and worked in agriculture for many years.

Here in California we grow the majority of the nation's fruits and vegetables. It is often said that we feed the nation. Our fruits, vegetables and grains not only feed this nation, but feed the world. Our farmers are dependent upon the immigrant to work on their farms. Without the immigrant, usually illegal immigrant, the crops would go unpicked in the fields. You don't see white men, or welfare recepients standing in the sun picking lettuce or tomatoes. Without the Mexican immigrants, these crops would literally rot in the fields. Think about it. Would you bend over picking tomatoes in the hot sun for 12 hours a day, 6 days a week, for minimum wage?? Hardly. But yet, the Mexican workers clammor to this nation, often paying the Coyotes thousands of dollars to be given the opportunity to do this work. They rarely complain about the conditions, taxes are taken out of their checks, which they never get to see benefit from, and they mainly keep to themselves.

The vast majority of these young men that come over for harvest are in this country illegally. They pay Coyotes for false documents to gain entry to our nation and then they frequent the flea markets to get fake work cards. The farmers, for the most part, know that these men are illegal, but yet they hire them, because there aren't any workers here legally offering to do the jobs! These men are usually housed in labor camps, provided by the farmers for a minimal fee. If they are lucky, the farmers are good humans and provide decent camps, others don't care. The labor camp I lived close to was decent. The men had running water, both hot and cold, washers and driers, bunks and even a cook. The cost was minimal to them, and although the conditions weren't those of the local Hilton, they were decent. The men policed their own. Very rarely did we have to call the sheriffs for a fight or noise or anything else. These were hard working men, looking for a better life for themselves and their families. Many of the men sent all of their money to their families in Mexico, except for what it cost to live in the camp. They had hopes of one day becoming legal, and bringing their families over, but few knew how to go about that. They were, for the most part, decent men, who worked hard. Some I am proud to call my friends to this day.

Other farmers provide camps that aren't fit for dogs to stay at, much less working men. Many of these camps don't have running water, or heat, or even toilet facilites. Yet, they have waiting lists to occupy their camps and work in their fields. Ever wonder why??

I am friends with several Mexican Americans. Most initially came here illegally and have since gained their legal status. We've had many talks about why they come, why they do this hard, long work and why they don't come here legally to begin with.

Mexicans, especially in rural Mexico, believe this nation is paved with gold. They've seen others get checks from men working here, and those checks are HUGE in pesos. The pictures they receive are of beautiful houses and parks, stores filled with every kind of commodity. It truly looks and sounds to them as if this nation IS paved in gold. Especially when many of these people don't have inside bathrooms, or running water, or enough food to feed their children. I was recently talking to a friend, who's mother still lives in Mexico. Although he is here legally now, he sends his mother money to help her. Her husband has died, she's elderly, she works 2 jobs and takes care of her mother. She makes about 4000 pesos a month, or $400. My friend will try to send her a couple of hundred dollars a month -- half of her income from both her jobs! She hears about her son's life, when he goes to visit. He owns a house, it's modest, but it's his, he has 2 nice cars, not brand new, but nice, he has a boat, again not new, but seaworthy to take his girls to the lake for the afternoon. His mother thinks he is rich. Let me assure you, my friend is NOT rich, he lives a modest life and both he and his wife work hard for every dollar they earn. But the mother believes he is RICH. And he is, in comparison to her meager life.

That's why they come here. They aren't afraid of hard work, because others who came before them worked hard and now are RICH in comparison to the lives they lived in Mexico. Why do they work those jobs that no one else will have?? They aren't afraid of hard work. They believe that if they work hard, no matter what the job, it will pay off and they too will be able to own cars and homes and have nice clothes and shop at Target.

Why don't they come here legally?? They can't. It takes years to go through the red tape of our nation. A friend of mine immigrated from Canada, legally. She had a job promised her here in the states, she was a nurse. It took her over 9, yes NINE years to be able to come here with her family legally! Thankfully her job worked with the government and held her promise of job, or it would have taken years longer!! Now imagine someone who really isn't a professional, who has skills, but not a nursing license, who doesn't have the thousands of dollars or the time to waste, because his house needs a roof (8000 pesos) and his children need food and shoes for winter. He cannot wait nine years to make a decent wage. He doesn't mind the hard work, long hours or indecent living conditions. All he cares about is sending his family money for the shoes, for the food and to replace the roof before it rains.

We don't need to make it harder for people to immigrate to this country. We need to make the time shorter. Perhaps not easier, but shorter. It shouldn't take years. We must have some program in place for temporary workers to come in to work in our fields, or WE will starve. Many of these men go home to Mexico every winter, after the crops are picked. Why don't we have a workable program to allow temporary status to these seasonal workers?? A program that doesn't take years to get into or cost thousands of dollars?? Because face it, if it was going to cost you $2500 to come here legally, but yet take 3 years to get that legal paperwork, where are you children?? Are they going hungry?? Yet as a Mexican, you can take that same $2500 and pay a coyote and in a week be earning money to send home. Don't ask me where they get that $2500 initially, because I've yet to figure it out -- but I think that their friends and family here in the states send it to them and tell them to come. It makes sense. They can make that amount in a couple of months here, in Mexico, it may take a whole year or more.

Think about it. Illegal Mexicans pay into social security and Medicare, they have taxes taken out of their checks, both local and federal. They cannot get Social Security and they cannot file for a tax refund. They are GIVING us that money, they will never see it again, nor the benefits from it. They are contributing to society and paying their own way! And yet, many want to send them home, back to Mexico. To those of you that feel this way I say this:

If you want the illegal Mexican workers to go home and stay in Mexico, they you, yes YOU, get off your ass, get your ass down to your local farm and YOU pick the crops. You have plenty of time, even with your regular job. Your regular job is only 8 hours a day -- gee, that leaves another 4 or 5 hours of day light, plus you can work weekends. YOU picks the crops, to put food on the tables of this nation. Don't complain when you are doing it, I don't wanna hear how your back hurts, or you are sun burned or tired. Oh and don't forget that money the farmer will take out of your check for income tax, social security, medicare and more?? You don't get that back. You can't include that on your yearly tax return and your social security check will not include those wages. Before you complain, walk a mile folks -- walk a mile.

Then and only then, will you be able to understand the real situation and the whole story.

Dr, Death

So, Jack is out of prison. I am glad. I didn't think he should have ever gone to prison in the first place. Physician assisted suicide should be legal on a federal level. Yes, there should be controls to it and laws in place to protect people, but essentially people, especially terminally ill people or people that live pain-filled, suffering lives, should have the right to die when they want and with dignity.

Anyone who has worked in the medical field knows that the medical professionals try to provide people with a good death, one that is not painful and that is with dignity. It wasn't always like that. Before Dr. Jack came along, many doctors would not prescribe hospice care to their terminally ill patients. I cannot tell you the number of doctors I have heard say they don't believe in hospice over the years, prior to Dr. Jack.

Perhaps what Jack did was illegal, but it wasn't unethical. And, he helped millions of people die a good death, with minimal suffering. I know, I watched my mother die of cancer prior to Jack. It was a horrendous death, filled with intense pain and suffering. Even though she was in an inpatient hospice care unit, one that is still considered the best on the West Coast, we had to fight to get her morphine increased to deal with her pain. It was horrible, both for her and for us, to sit and watch her out of her mind in pain, with little to no relief. Even as she took her last breathe, she had a grimace on her face. In all honesty, I don't know if I was more upset at her death or at the pain she was allowed to endure.

In contrast, I lost my best friend to breast cancer 2 years ago. She was in hospice, but as an outpatient, as she wanted to die at home. Char's death was a good death. Her pain was adequately controlled, she died peacefully at home with her friends and family. There was nothing but a peaceful expression on her face. The difference?? She was allowed to have adequate pain control. The hospice nurses continued to increase her morphine until she was comfortable. Yes, in all actuality the morphine probably decreased her ability to breath and thus quicked her death, but she was comfortable. To some, hospice delivered a lethal amount of morphine and to most people the amount that Char was given would have been lethal in minutes. However, even with increased, lethal doses of morphine, it took many days for her to breath her last breathe and she did so after she said her good-byes to those she loved.

My mother didn't get that option. The intense pain from the cancer caused hallucinations and psychosis. My mother never got to say good-bye and as a result I never got to say good-bye to my mother when she was still coherrent.

Quite a difference a few years made. Dr. Death, or Jack Kevorkian, was and is a God send to those people and families that are suffering. Physician assisted suicide is only legal in one state and it may never be legal in any other state, but Jack opened the eyes of many people to the suffering that is allowed to continue and as a result he helped tame that suffering. Now, in hospitals every where across this nation and in hospice units, doctors and nurses are allowed to increase the morphine levels in terminal patients to lethal doses to control pain. Pain relief is given and people are allowed to die with peace and dignity -- not in the throes of painful suffering.

We should all be thankful for Dr. Jack Kevorkian. The next patient his work helps, may be you or someone you love. After all, when our pets are suffering, we think nothing of taking them to the vet and have them 'put to sleep'. Why should our loved ones, our mothers and fathers, our sisters and brothers and even our children, be allowed any less humane and compassion??

New Blog, First Post

First post, new blog.

About me.

Middle aged (God I hate that), married to Ray, mother to 2 grown human children and 5 furry butts, commonly called dogs. I have a son, who is currently in the Navy and a daughter, who is a school teacher. The dogs, are dogs -- 3 Siberian Huskies, one Malamute mix and one German Shepherd mix.

I can be very strong willed and opinionated. That's putting it nicely. My thoughts are my own, they may not agree with yours, but I'm not asking you to agree with them. I probably don't agree with you opinions, but I respect that they are yours, and that's what makes each person on this earth an individual.

I don't know how often I will post here. Probably some, maybe not a lot. Maybe more then I think. It's unknown. Time will tell.